The ill-conceived notion that
I’d ascend my body into some
enlightened being –
That was all false and hazy and I
wanted to just become this light
being I knew I was
And then it all caved in on me and I
was stuck as me.
So what did I do?
I went back to myself. What I like
doing, my selfish ways. Even if
I am false I am right because I exist
Whatever existence is. And
whether I’m being insistent on it or
not doesn’t matter anymore. I’m
Here, and there isn’t anything I can
do about it anyway.
I’m responsible for what I project.
I’m not responsible for
how people perceive me.
I’m compelled to do what
I’m compelled to do and why
should I deny it?
I should say “defy” I should say
It’s all bullshit, but what makes
a person react? Let’s say someone
punches your face.
It’s all a simulation, and
you can’t help but react.
- By Tanya Soraya Ruys